To start off, this is such an unorthodox kind of post for me. Today it’ll just be me, no fancy soliloquies or big words you may have to google. Just me. There has been a longing in my spirit to write, but honestly guys; I’ve been out of control. My flesh has been undisciplined and the enemy has taken complete control of that. I believe that he is the master of distractions, but I won’t give him credit for all of my absence here. My flesh was active too, actively living in fear and at maximum capacity with excuses. I had been pursuing the desires of my flesh and completely breaking up with my purpose to encourage, because frankly; it’s just seemed like too tough of a job. When I accepted the call to ministry through writing here, I never imagined how aggressive the attack on my life would be. I knew that I would face opposition from the enemy. Why wouldn’t I? He’s afraid of me because he knows that I live to make hell and all of its demons tremble when I wake. I am a force in The Kingdom of God, and I have been ashamed at how bleak the evidence of that has appeared in my life, as of late. All of these realizations have bullied me into a paralyzing silence, but in retrospect, they’ve forced me so close to the ground that there’s nowhere to go but UP. During my stay in this abyss I’ve remembered that every day is a new beginning, a new day to hit the ground running into my purpose. I’ve decided to no longer mope in the pits of disappointment with myself and understand that shame is only brought about by unholy figures and they’re liars. No matter who I was yesterday or what I’ve done that wasn’t conducive to my destiny prior to this moment; they hold no weight. The great thing about my God is that even in my seasons of disobedience He was never quiet. He spoke things into my soul that I was too defiant to produce, but today; a new day; a new mercy I will laugh in Satan’s face by pressing the publish button. He thought he had a hold on me. God is there for you that very same way. He grants new mercies EVERY morning for all of His children and His grace is overflowing. If you are struggling through a commitment, here are a few truths that revived my pen:
1. STOP MAKING EXCUSES!
“Chillllleeeee,” I don’t know how excuses operate in your life, but in mine they are my greatest form of procrastination. There was always stupendous reason as to why I couldn’t produce material for this space. They were always related to guilt caused by sin. No matter what, always remember that God is not going to cut you off. It’s your own disobedience that’s got you feeling like God is no longer in communication with you. YOU are your own biggest obstacle. Shut down your insecurities by having a repentant heart and move forward. It really is THAT simple. (Acts 8:22 “Repent, therefore, of this wickedness of yours, and pray to the Lord that, if possible, the intent of your heart may be forgiven you.”)
2. Take life ONE day at a time.
I’m a repeat offender when it comes to tricking myself out of continually pursuing ministry. To me, that means that my flesh will not be satisfied and that can be an overwhelming feeling for someone who was once running wild in the freedom of pleasing self above ALL else. We should live our lives clinging onto the promises of God, praying for EVERYTHING and worrying about NOTHING. That’s the attitude that leads us into freedom versus being anxious over things tomorrow may never bring.
(Philippians 4:6-7 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.")
3. Serve God in freedom not in slavery of religion.
I cannot explain how freeing it has been to love on Jesus the way that I have. Loving Him has nothing to do with a bunch of “Don’ts” but everything to do with “because you love Me, you will have a heart that reflects mine.” Religion has a bad reputation, relationship is IT! Allow God to transform your heart and your attitude about seeking Him will change. Serving God by walking a righteous life, is not a tool to keep you from the things you think you enjoy or need. A heart that reflects God, desires the things He has crafted for our lives. He doesn’t fit into our stories, He wrote them. (2 Timothy 1:7 “For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.")
4. Stay connected with other believers who will hold you accountable.
There’s no way possible that we can be surrounded by like-spirited people and be comfortable with not pursuing purpose. I want individuals around me who are going to sharpen me, pour into me and hold me accountable. People of God are to bare crosses of one another, when community among believers is done the right way, failing is impractical. God was so intentional when He created us. Get connected and stay connected, because these people will be a part of the shield that protects you during spiritual warfare. (Psalm 133:1 “How good and pleasant it is when God’s people live together in unity!”)
Take your requests, repentance and thanksgiving to God. Prayer is our strongest weapon against the enemy, you can trust that he’s always looking for opportunities when we are not connected to God through prayer. Leave less space for doubt and other things that speak the opposite of what God has already said about you. (James 5:16: “The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.”)
I hope that these reminders jump start the next few moments and transform the momentum of whatever season you’re in. You are so worth the life God has called you to.
Also, enjoy a free gift from me that I purchased from Etsy!: Mercies