A while ago, maybe even yesterday I took great pride in being the bigger person. It made me walk with my head held a little higher and my chest stick out a bit further. I satisfyingly chuckled at the reality of remaining rational and calm during a situation that my flesh felt deserved a reaction. What if I told you that you'd never have to worry about being the bigger person ever again? I'm talking pretty confidently now...
YOU don't ever have to worry about being the bigger person.
The past few days have been a complicated sort, if I'm being honest but God always delivers. He's shown me why I continue to have to endure "hard to deal with" people, because I've been failing the test. I've resounded instances where I've felt my most angry and I've counted the responses where God was not present, not even a little. My words were vicious and my actions mirrored them. I've remembered times where I've murmured words of hate instead of prayers to God to help me deal. I was the fool the Bible talked about in Proverbs 18:6 "A fool's lips walk into a fight and his mouth invited a beating." There is no question that you've once felt angry or offended, or if you've ever even stayed there for a while in that dark place of discomfiture. Why do we have this horrible habit of harboring things of no value in our hearts? Most importantly, why do we allow our anger stemmed reactions to destroy our integrity in Christ? It is critical that we know anger is an attack of the enemy. God tells us that "human anger DOES NOT produce the righteousness that God desires" (James 1:20) More times than not my reactions were regretful ones. One reason being that God is HUGE, He is my reaction. It shouldn't be hard for that evident truth to be grasped, but if it were would we still be reckless with our words and our actions?
As a child of God I am responsible for shutting up and letting Him be the examiner and judge of any situation involving offense.
Although my flesh wants to testify against any reproof that I'm accused of, it isn't necessary. I've realized how SMALL I should be. The "I" that I'm referencing is the one that's first reaction is to passionately jump on defense. The pride, ego and emotions that I carried in my pockets should've remained pocket sized and hidden. Contrary to if I were right or wrong God would've been the source of understanding for all involved. He's limitless and while bringing understanding and light to a situation he also brings peace and gentle convictions. We can walk away from a situation with confidence in God because he will handle it. I've only just had a revelation on how important my reactions are especially in times where discomfort or anguish are present. When I've reacted with confidence in God He's been able to do remarkable things, some of those "hard to deal with" people have disappeared from my immediate space. It doesn't get any easier, there will always be someone around who is satisfied with being a person of iniquity. Our job is to simply "do good" and move over. We no longer have to bring ourselves to spiritual exhaustion while conjuring up grand reactions to come out on top; to be the bigger person.
"But to you who are listening I say: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you." (Luke 6:27-28) Remember that when it comes to God handling situations built on the foundation of anger, we are only SMALL things to a Giant.