This exact time last year I was on an escapade of repairing a past hurt. Just when I was settling into the routine of loving myself and loving God even more, I approached a familiar fork in the road. This road glittered with the visions of opportunity to create a life that I'd promised myself.... this road was reconciliation. After being divorced for two and a half years and experiencing my share of relationships thereafter, I still longed for compatibility that only marriage could assure. Wishful thinking was in believing that after that period, the individual maturity of us collectively could restore a marriage, we tried....and it didn't happen. We were still in two separate places in our lives and the biggest obstruction was unmatched yolk.
On this road that once glittered; gloom came. It was trashed with the alcohol, fornication, and shacking along with the immense amount of compromise that landed me in a place of unpredictable discomfort, in the first place. I was flourishing in self-sufficiency, and again, I counted God out, I couldn't hear his whispers of "it's not time," because my actions of opposition screamed "I want it now." Even the realization of protected spiritual health and growth after leaving a plagued situation, didn't eliminate the darkness, sadness or broken-heartedness that I felt. During the time of dealing with my broken heart, it was only Christ who repaired it. I sulked to my best friend and he gave me the name of a song to listen to called "Love don't lie" by Johnny Drille. I remember feeling a blanket of comfort and warmth wrapped around me like a quilt. The hushed tones of "this is not over, everything will be alright" reassured me. The words of this song reminded me of God's love for me; for US.
"I will find you, stars will guide you. You'll be alright, you'll be fine. You're not alone cus' I will be watching. My love don't lie, you'll be alright, and I will be with you tonight."
We choose to rely so heavily on the natural that we forget about the SUPER NATURAL. We miss out on unconditional love, all at a trade for love under conditions of satisfying someone else. Contrary to my outstanding track record of hardheadedness, God was still with me, in fact I felt closer to him. Psalm 34:18 says "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted." I read a devotional this week titled: "Kind of Sorrow" it gave me fresh words on how God intends for our suffering to turn us away from sin, and to salvation. It's been a full year since then and God still shows me TODAY, how he helped me escape a broken heart. You don't have to live a life of brokenness with a sore heart because God gives us unconditional love that no human being can give. Never count him out, he is MORE than enough. Dearly Beloved….